Thoughts Versus Actions

Page Eleven

Posted on: 05-30-2008 @ 01:19 pm     Greenfield



Still May 30…

This is mostly to address a comment autistic-malcontent has left me since this morning. I can accept the NT’s disliking, even detesting me, if I absolutely have to. I’m not very patient with humans and never have been. And over the 11 hell years that I’m still in, I’ve beccome even less patient. Add that to the fact that I come from a family of tempers. I get furious at people a dozen times a day. I mock them, use all of my caustic wit on them both in my journals and in conversation about them, but those are my thoughts and emotions. It’s a rare thing for me to seek any kind of redress or to try to hurt someone other than verbally. My pattern in my life has been almost always to avoid people I dislike, not to try to harm them, deprive them of money, or children or apartment or whatever. This is what I can neither accept nor understand: Why do these NT’s (so many of them in my life) feel they have the right to follow up their negative thoughts and emotions with actions; destructive, cruel ones? Why do they feel they have the right to attack?


Update 7 Aug 2009: I still have the same question: Why? Why have so many neurotypicals taken it upon themselves to actively hurt me, when, if they find me so weird, they could just as easily leave me alone and let me be?

And I have to add that I love the user-name autistic-malcontent. I am certainly one of those (though that is hardly all that I am) and wish I’d thought of that name myself.







Comment By: AutisticMalcontent(Posted on 06-01-2008 @ 11:00 am)
Comment: I can say this much, you are a better person for mocking them in your journals, and not so much in your speech or actions, although you said you do mock them in conversations on occassion. As for myself, I’m very passive and calm, and so was my father and my grandfather. I come from a family of introverts. However, the rude and blatant arrogance of some (not all) neurotypical people has trained me to distrust many of them. I judge a lot by the action of a few to many. I think both you and I like to follow the Golden Rule- “treat others the way you want to be treated”. But some people nowadays, they don’t even know what manners and proper behavior is, it is like they either think they are the King or Queen of England, or they have the selfish mannerisms of a five year old brat. I’m not out for blood, I don’t want conflict, I just want to live in peace with my fellow man. I show everyone respect until they prove otherwise. The reason I think that many NT’s follow up their negative thoughts and emotions with cruel, destructive actions is because of a number of factors: feeling insecure about themselves, immaturity, ignorance, arrogance, selfishness, greed, etc. These are generic, but NT’s have normal mental capabilities, so they can understand things culturally and socially more than we can. And NT’s view things very emotionally, compared to us who view things very logically and sensibly, this is what I believe.

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